[ But he doesn't want to, would rather lie in bed all day with two people that he likes and just be safe and warm and ignorant for as long as he possibly can. ]
Yeah, I know. But at least for one night, I can pretend none of that is real. Just you, and me. ...And Kazuaki.
[ God, why do they always hit her most sensitive subjects? How do you try to help someone when the problems they have are exactly the problems you have? Why does she want to tell him not to do the exact things that she lets herself do, the exact things that drove her to making her own world? ]
...
We'll still be there, at least. Even when whatever happens happens. We'll still be there.
[ ... assuming none of them die, anyway. the eternal caveat. ]
...Yeah. [ He swallows down the hesitation and doubt in his voice, because it's always something on his mind: how long will they be here? when will they leave me? what will I do to make people walk away?
I wish people would stop dying.
I don't want to be alone again.
He draws a breath, holds it until it becomes stale, then lets it out. He doesn't feel any better. But he smiles anyways, because here, now, he can also pretend there is nobody else in the world, that Akane will be here forever. ]
No matter what happens, I'll never leave you. Thinking of it like that... makes me feel better. Like everything will be okay.
[ Is it an out when he doesn't want to leave? Doesn't think about leaving, not here or now when his smile softens to something more sure, and he lifts his head. ]
I say what's on my mind. What I feel. No point, otherwise.
[ She's trapped. That's all Akane can think about this. Minato doesn't like her, he likes who he thinks she is. No amount of fishing for confirmation changes that he's working off a false perception. Even when she gets him to say what she wants, it's still meaningless.
Whether he says these things to anyone or not doesn't even matter, in the end. She wants it to matter, but it doesn't. Even if it's only to her, he doesn't really even know her to begin with. ]
I guess that's what I like about you.
[ ... But she doesn't know what else to do but play along with what she's done. ]
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Date: 2019-06-21 04:57 am (UTC)If nobody wakes us up in the morning, I'm sleeping in until the next day.
[ like. until Saturday. ]
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Date: 2019-06-21 05:04 am (UTC)[ Somehow, it seems really really hard for her to say this, but: ]
... You still have to face the reality, whatever happens.
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Date: 2019-06-21 05:17 am (UTC)[ But he doesn't want to, would rather lie in bed all day with two people that he likes and just be safe and warm and ignorant for as long as he possibly can. ]
Yeah, I know. But at least for one night, I can pretend none of that is real. Just you, and me. ...And Kazuaki.
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Date: 2019-06-21 05:24 am (UTC)...
We'll still be there, at least. Even when whatever happens happens. We'll still be there.
[ ... assuming none of them die, anyway. the eternal caveat. ]
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Date: 2019-06-21 05:31 am (UTC)I wish people would stop dying.
I don't want to be alone again.
He draws a breath, holds it until it becomes stale, then lets it out. He doesn't feel any better. But he smiles anyways, because here, now, he can also pretend there is nobody else in the world, that Akane will be here forever. ]
No matter what happens, I'll never leave you. Thinking of it like that... makes me feel better. Like everything will be okay.
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Date: 2019-06-21 05:37 am (UTC)[ Usually she's trying to make him say it. Usually she's actively working to trick him into saying it.
But this time it's like she's giving him an out? Laughing it off is safer than meaning it, isn't it? ]
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Date: 2019-06-21 05:39 am (UTC)I say what's on my mind. What I feel. No point, otherwise.
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Date: 2019-06-21 05:44 am (UTC)Whether he says these things to anyone or not doesn't even matter, in the end. She wants it to matter, but it doesn't. Even if it's only to her, he doesn't really even know her to begin with. ]
I guess that's what I like about you.
[ ... But she doesn't know what else to do but play along with what she's done. ]