[ Yeah, that's exactly what he did, trying his best until he realized it didn't matter, and then slipping again. Coffee and bread is good enough to keep him going, and as long as he keeps going, that's fine.
He does look a bit sheepish, though, almost guilty. ]
It's a dumb bet, huh... I guess I just find it easier if it feels like I'm doing something for somebody else's sake, instead of my own.
[ Bet with Naminé is fun because it involves one other person. Taking care of himself isn't, because it's just him. Something like that. ]
[ she is... frustrated and unimpressed. akane likes people that will listen to her, but what's the point if they don't listen to only her? and what's with running away from taking responsibility for yourself like that? ]
That's so stupid.
Were you only trying to change because someone told you to?
[ But he can't say it wasn't for the sake of somebody else, either. If he were smarter or kinder or more reliable, maybe people would pay him mind and it'll be easier to get along with them. Something like that. ]
Do you think it's wrong to change? When somebody else wants you to, and you don't feel strongly about it either way?
[ The process is much harder than that, Minato's found, but he also really doesn't know what sort of person he wants to end up being; maybe it's just hard for him because he's aimless, that he tries to move forward without any real goal in mind. ]
You've worked hard, huh... I like the person you are now. I wish I could've known who you were before, too.
[ ... after a beat, Akane plasters a smile on her face. This conversation is Upsetting so she's just going to stop engaging with it on a sincere level. ]
[ And then two days later he's found living in the casino with nothing but several dozen cups of coffee, a bowl of week old gravy, and Shirasu's inedible cooking. ]
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Date: 2019-06-11 08:59 pm (UTC)Just for some dumb bet?
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Date: 2019-06-11 09:03 pm (UTC)[ Yeah, that's exactly what he did, trying his best until he realized it didn't matter, and then slipping again. Coffee and bread is good enough to keep him going, and as long as he keeps going, that's fine.
He does look a bit sheepish, though, almost guilty. ]
It's a dumb bet, huh... I guess I just find it easier if it feels like I'm doing something for somebody else's sake, instead of my own.
[ Bet with Naminé is fun because it involves one other person. Taking care of himself isn't, because it's just him. Something like that. ]
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Date: 2019-06-11 09:11 pm (UTC)What does the other person get from it? Watching you get sick? Why do you want to give them that?
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Date: 2019-06-11 09:15 pm (UTC)...It... would be entirely my fault. I accept the consequences of my actions.
[ He says the words like he's reading them out loud, instead of really saying it. The other person wins the bet. That's all they should care about. ]
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Date: 2019-06-11 09:29 pm (UTC)That's so stupid.
Were you only trying to change because someone told you to?
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Date: 2019-06-12 12:00 am (UTC)Not because somebody told me to...
[ But he can't say it wasn't for the sake of somebody else, either. If he were smarter or kinder or more reliable, maybe people would pay him mind and it'll be easier to get along with them. Something like that. ]
Do you think it's wrong to change? When somebody else wants you to, and you don't feel strongly about it either way?
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Date: 2019-06-12 12:04 am (UTC)[ "... For someone else?" Can't change for someone else? ... No. She just can't change. ]
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Date: 2019-06-12 12:06 am (UTC)Anybody can change, I think... But not everybody has to. If you're happy with how you are, I'm glad.
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Date: 2019-06-12 12:39 am (UTC)If you want to be different from how you are, you just change things. But I've already changed. I'm already who I want to be.
[ So she can't change again. Obviously. She makes the it sound so simplistic, but... Very clearly has conflicting thoughts and feelings on it.]
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Date: 2019-06-12 12:45 am (UTC)You've worked hard, huh... I like the person you are now. I wish I could've known who you were before, too.
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Date: 2019-06-12 01:11 am (UTC)What makes you say that? Why would you want to know me as different from this if you like this?
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Date: 2019-06-12 03:16 am (UTC)[ Because everybody grows and matures, and he can't hope to understand anybody fully if he didn't know where they started from. ]
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Date: 2019-06-12 03:30 am (UTC)I guess. I don't really get it.
But you shouldn't make yourself sick.
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Date: 2019-06-12 03:57 am (UTC)Yeah, I'll look after myself. Sorry for making you worry.
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Date: 2019-06-12 04:08 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-06-12 04:12 am (UTC)Then, a correction: Thank you for talking sense into me.
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Date: 2019-06-12 04:14 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-06-12 04:16 am (UTC).......Yeah, I did. I'm going to tell Naminé the bet is off. 'cause it'd be no good if I get sick and die.
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Date: 2019-06-12 04:21 am (UTC)I feel bad ruining your fun with a friend...
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Date: 2019-06-12 04:24 am (UTC)No, it's okay. We can find something else to bet on, after all. Or do other things together, that she can do too.
[ Since waiting for Minato to die drinking coffee must be pretty boring for her and not at all fun. ]
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Date: 2019-06-12 04:28 am (UTC)[ phew!!! ]
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Date: 2019-06-12 04:30 am (UTC)[ And then two days later he's found living in the casino with nothing but several dozen cups of coffee, a bowl of week old gravy, and Shirasu's inedible cooking. ]
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Date: 2019-06-12 04:35 am (UTC)Mm. I think you can change, if you really want to.