Milla Won't Let Me Hang Out With My Friend Alone

[specialdog]

fuck you Milla

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[specialdog]

[ Alright, well, Milla won't let them be alone, so Akane is. Giving her a mildly annoyed glance, then directing her attention to Shirasu. ]

You lied to me.

[wagashis]

...I did. It was safer not to let anyone know-- I couldn't risk that.

[Even when it's Akane, the fear is there; he doesn't meet her eyes, his posture still tense and wary.]

[specialdog]

[ She looks away, mostly because she doesn't seem to like admitting something like this? ]

If you were scared of something you should have told me.

[wagashis]

I couldn't, I couldn't tell any of you-- I'd have been dead if I were found out. I'll be dead now.

[An edge of panic creeps in, there.]

...I could trust you with other things. Not with that.

[specialdog]

If you were going to be dead either way, then it would have been better to tell me.

[ ... There's more she wants to say, but. Not with Milla here... ]

[wagashis]

I didn't think I would be, before now--

[When everyone didn't know, it was a different story. It was safest to just say nothing; he shakes his head, there.]

...if you have anything you want to know, then- maybe.

[The fear effect sure is a thing, still, but he actually does like Akane? It's better than it is around others.]

[specialdog]

I'm just curious.

Did you kill Kazuaki-kun because it would be convenient? Because he was an easy target?

[wagashis]

...because of his partner.

[mauyn's shitpost was actually correct, he wanted to get paired with minato...]

I almost chose someone else.

[specialdog]

Because of Minato-kun...?

[ She doesn't quite follow, but. Hm... ]

Who would you have chosen instead? If you hadn't picked Kazuaki-kun.

[wagashis]

[...There's a pause there, because they're not alone, and he's currently afraid of anyone else knowing. So all he eventually says is:]

I think you might have some idea.

[specialdog]

[ She nods... So on to her next question. ]

What is it about Four that you hate so much?

[wagashis]

--you heard what I said before, didn't you?

[So for starters, the light doxxing of her memories in trial.]

You don't know how much I've had to find out through others, because she refused to tell me. She's never been willing to cooperate-- we've never trusted each other.

[specialdog]

[ She just figured maybe there was more to it. Something he'd say differently with less of an audience. ]

It's not like you have to be that close with your partner, do you?

[ what up Milla......... sorry but...... Well, she'd point out that 'not trusting' someone is fine unless you straight up think they'll murder you or something, but... Thanks to the curse, he probably does feel that, whether he did before or not. ]

[wagashis]

You have to at least be certain they won't turn on you.

[A quick, restless headshake, there.]

If you can't-- you have to do it first.

[specialdog]

It's self defense.

[ Does she actually agree or is she just placating him...? ]

But why not just kill Four?

[wagashis]

Too many bodies, too much risk of being stuck with a horse or someone else I can't work with-- and too much risk of dying unpartnered, with too many spares.

[he just. thinks the horse was annoying. hello this is the uno person who hated swift wind, probably.]

[specialdog]

[ Hmm... She doesn't even know what more to say, but she doesn't want to leave him alone in this state? This sucks?? ]

How are you feeling, now?

[ I mean, bad, right? ]

[wagashis]

Terrible.

[He huffs out a humorless, shaky laugh.]

I haven't felt this afraid in-- years. What he did certainly doesn't help.

[A nice dose of pain on top of the emotional effects is like, the opposite of helpful. By now he's probably kind of pale-- well, more than he already is.]

[specialdog]

Well... You did stab someone.

[ But... ] ... They still shouldn't have done that.

[wagashis]

I'm sure you're one of the few who think so.

[Given how many people probably wish he was dead right now? He doubts very many have any empathy.]

[specialdog]

You did stab someone.

[ She repeats it because, like, she is sympathetic... And doesn't think they should have done that... BUT THAT IS. AN IMPORTANT FACTOR. ]

[wagashis]

He was going to get me killed. He still is.

[That's the only possible result, now. Just look at the horse.]

Only fair to take him with me-- for all the good that did, I suppose.

[specialdog]

He's always seemed pretty nice, to me.

[ So she's not exactly pro-him-getting-stabbed. But also clearly not entirely opposed?? ]

[wagashis]

However nice he may be, when someone kills me it's still going to be his doing.

[It's still a 'when' to him, not an 'if'. Hard to truly say if it's the fear talking.]

[specialdog]

I think plenty of people would say you brought it on yourself, since you were the one that killed first.

[wagashis]

I know that-

[He exhales another unsteady breath, there.]

I know. I'm well aware how few are going to care when it happens.

[If they don't kill him as an acceptable sacrifice when their trial luck runs out, then he'll be a body they barely look at-- unless they think someone corrupt killed him, maybe.]

[specialdog]

[ When...

Man, too bad she can't object to that. ]

I can't promise it won't happen, I guess. [ Translation: She wants to. ] No one will listen to me if I say not to kill you.

[wagashis]

Akane-chan--

[another shaky exhale there, though there's a hint of amusement in his tone. saying not to kill him would be pointless, but... the sentiment is still nice. at least from her he can maybe believe it's not just for his partner's sake.]

...ah, I really should have tried to pair myself with you instead of him.

[that was definitely the alternate plan.]