Both possibilities require work, one more than the other, if indeed it exists at all. But I am not dismissing either. Rather, I am working towards effective solutions for both.
No one wanted to bother treating my delicately like they would anyone else who just lost a friend or a boyfriend. Or both.
People I barely know wanted me to strip for them, and to not complain when I got grabbed by someone who's always mean to me. And, just like I said, I had nothing to show.
Then when I tell the truth about everything I know, I still get yelled at as if I've got some amazing secret I'm keeping. What am I supposed to do, confess to something I didn't do? I've been telling the truth every single stupid trial and I still get treated like a liar.
[She rolls over several thoughts in her mind, considering Akane's feelings. Nothing she said was... bizarre, per say. Brazen, perhaps, considering. But not out of line. Not even necessarily wrong. But there was something about it.]
Things are not proceeding the way you would prefer them to, and you are powerless to affect them otherwise.
[...
"rewrite you to like me", wasn't it?]
Akane, in your own world—how much power did you hold?
When I lost the Four Great Spirits, I had to re-learn even the most basic of functions.
I had never eaten in my life, never slept, never drunk water. I could not move my sword on my own, as their hand had guided me in it. It was frustrating, and I could not help but feel as if I had encountered a massive setback. I was forced to rely on others because of it—something I had never done before, never needed to do.
If your experience mimics my own, then I can truly understand from where your emotions bloomed, Akane—and while I will not dote upon you, I am happy to stay by your side, regardless of our partnership.
[ She doesn't seem to know how to take that. It's hard to think of Milla as someone vulnerable--and it's hard to empathize with her upbeat attitude when she's had to go through something like that. If Akane had to go through that... Well, she'd handle it less gracefully...
Unsure of how to reply to the back story or Milla's offer, she just. Stays quiet. ]
No? Then, have you told them in detail how much it distresses, angers, and frustrates you to your very core and soul?
What I understand of you, Akane, is only what I have gained from the outside, so I cannot speak with a measure of expertise—but it seems that you alienate people when they do not immediately sympathise with your plight—even if they are not aware of it.
[There's a pause—and she shakes her head.]
But... I understand your hesitation well. And to that end, I would like to hear more of who you truly are.
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Date: 2019-07-14 05:33 am (UTC)And that person alone will have the power to rebuild, or change the universe, to their own specifications.
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Date: 2019-07-14 05:34 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-07-14 05:37 am (UTC)[naturally.]
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Date: 2019-07-14 05:38 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-07-14 05:42 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-07-14 05:44 am (UTC)You won't change anything without a real plan.
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Date: 2019-07-14 05:46 am (UTC)What do you think is best?
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Date: 2019-07-14 05:49 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-07-14 05:54 am (UTC)Both possibilities require work, one more than the other, if indeed it exists at all. But I am not dismissing either. Rather, I am working towards effective solutions for both.
What are your plans, Akane?
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Date: 2019-07-14 06:00 am (UTC)And that's going to get harder when everyone's made up their mind about me no matter what I do.
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Date: 2019-07-14 06:14 am (UTC)Do you believe that the onus rests solely on the people considering you, and not on yourself?
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Date: 2019-07-14 06:17 am (UTC)[ Again. ]
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Date: 2019-07-14 06:18 am (UTC)[It's a statement, not a question.]
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Date: 2019-07-14 06:27 am (UTC)No one wanted to bother treating my delicately like they would anyone else who just lost a friend or a boyfriend. Or both.
People I barely know wanted me to strip for them, and to not complain when I got grabbed by someone who's always mean to me. And, just like I said, I had nothing to show.
Then when I tell the truth about everything I know, I still get yelled at as if I've got some amazing secret I'm keeping. What am I supposed to do, confess to something I didn't do? I've been telling the truth every single stupid trial and I still get treated like a liar.
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Date: 2019-07-14 06:57 am (UTC)Things are not proceeding the way you would prefer them to, and you are powerless to affect them otherwise.
[...
"rewrite you to like me", wasn't it?]
Akane, in your own world—how much power did you hold?
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Date: 2019-07-14 07:02 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2019-07-14 07:08 am (UTC)Were you born a goddess? Or did you come into your abilities later in life?
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Date: 2019-07-14 10:14 pm (UTC)I became a goddess. I made a new world to go to.
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Date: 2019-07-15 12:16 pm (UTC)Becoming mortal again.
It's frustrating, isn't it?
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Date: 2019-07-15 10:45 pm (UTC)God, it's frustrating. ]
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Date: 2019-07-16 11:38 am (UTC)I had never eaten in my life, never slept, never drunk water. I could not move my sword on my own, as their hand had guided me in it. It was frustrating, and I could not help but feel as if I had encountered a massive setback. I was forced to rely on others because of it—something I had never done before, never needed to do.
If your experience mimics my own, then I can truly understand from where your emotions bloomed, Akane—and while I will not dote upon you, I am happy to stay by your side, regardless of our partnership.
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Date: 2019-07-16 05:17 pm (UTC)Unsure of how to reply to the back story or Milla's offer, she just. Stays quiet. ]
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Date: 2019-07-17 01:30 am (UTC)How many people know of this, Akane?
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Date: 2019-07-17 05:50 am (UTC)It's not a huge secret.
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Date: 2019-07-17 12:42 pm (UTC)What I understand of you, Akane, is only what I have gained from the outside, so I cannot speak with a measure of expertise—but it seems that you alienate people when they do not immediately sympathise with your plight—even if they are not aware of it.
[There's a pause—and she shakes her head.]
But... I understand your hesitation well. And to that end, I would like to hear more of who you truly are.
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