Catch-All for Minato

[specialdog]

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[specialdog]

[ x doubt ]

Are you, though...?

[ she has no idea what bread baking journey he has been through, but based on everything she's seen up until now... ]

[compendiem]

Yes. Milla liked it.

[ Milla likes everything, but at least she didn't dislike it? His bread isn't that level of horrible? ]

[specialdog]

I'm still gonna rely on a cookbook, okay?

[compendiem]

Okay.

[ He's fine using a cookbook; all that means is that the cake will come out perfect, because Minato can follow directions if he feels like following directions, but it'll be boring. Maybe he can convince Akane to let him decorate it, but he'll push his luck after the cake is done. ]

Birthdays... are kinda hard here. But when is yours? We could celebrate it today too.

[specialdog]

It's January 2nd. But I don't want to celebrate on the same day as you.

That's what's fun about birthdays. They're special, and you usually get one all to yourself. Don't you want your birthday all to yourself?

[compendiem]

[ Lots of people are born on the same day... ]

Not really... it's kind of weird having a celebration just for me. I just want the cake.

[specialdog]

[ Yeah but statistically how many of them are going to be your own friends and family!! She said 'usually'! ]

... You don't want the celebration? Why not...?

[compendiem]

I mean... I would buy myself cake, if I knew what day it was. But celebrations involve people.

[ And he doesn't have people— friends, family, anything like that. ]

[specialdog]

Celebrating can look like whatever you want it to look like. If that's just having some cake by yourself, that's fine.

[ She is misunderstanding his lack of friends and family for a lack of desire for those things, but okay. ]

[compendiem]

I guess... I could have birthday cake every day. There's nothing stopping me.

[specialdog]

You'll get sick if you do that...

[compendiem]

[ Minato is so close to making a bet out of this, but that's how Naminé got him to drink nothing but coffee for a full week, and he's trying to be better. ]

What about one bite of birthday cake a day?

[specialdog]

[ That's also how Namine almost got murdered. :) ]

I think that would be fine. It's not that bad to have a liiiittle bit of sweets every day. But I think you'd get tired of it if you had it every day.

[compendiem]

[ hey what does that mean cola ]

That balanced diet thing, huh... Four was talking to me about that too. You don't have a favorite food you'd never get sick of. I want to be able to cook something you'd enjoy too.

[specialdog]

[ Don't worry about it. ]

I don't think I have anything I'd never get tired of. It's hard for me to even pick one food to call my favorite to begin with.

[compendiem]

[ hm ]

...Last time, when we were talking about cooking, you said you liked vegetables. You're already eating a lot better than I am. You really take care of yourself, huh? You make it look easy...

[specialdog]

[ Hm. She looks away. ]

... Maybe in some ways. But you and I are alike.

[compendiem]

...You think so?

[ He smiles a little, but he has to wonder how alike they really are. ]

I wish I could be more like you, honestly.

[specialdog]

Mm. Maybe we're not as alike when I'm like this, but...

[ Well, she wanted to be more like this version of herself, too. ]

[compendiem]

But... how you were before?

[ She mentioned it only a little, but never talked much about it; Minato didn't push, and he doesn't want to now. Still... ]

I think I sort of get it. But maybe I'm wrong. How people are just a bit different, depending on who they're with. I kind of like who I am, when I'm with you.

[specialdog]

[ Akane is finally ready to talk about this with him... But not with any modicum of vulnerability, so she's back to her usual cheerful mask when she looks back to him. Maybe if she talks about it like it's lighthearted, it will feel less serious? ]

The world is scary. It's big, and it's hard to be around people. It's hard to get along with them and face them all the time. I was always afraid.

So - I created my own world. A world where I'm in control of everything and everyone. Where I can make everyone love me. Where I could be whatever I wanted, and still be sure of exactly how everyone felt about me.

[compendiem]

[ Minato's quiet as he listens, staring back at her with a quiet confusion that's isn't because he doesn't believe her, and more because he's trying to understand. It's a fantastical thing, a story straight out of a video game or a movie, but the past year of his life had also felt the same. ]

The world is scary... that's what I told Four, too. But look at you. You became a god. That's kind of awesome.

[ That's one way to deal with it?? He's impressed. ]

[specialdog]

[ She's glad he thinks so. Her shoulders relax--she hadn't meant to tense them up to begin with. ]

That's why a place like this is so hard. I'm just a person again, here. I can't set how people think of me.

[ ... But he likes her anyway...? ]

[compendiem]

Yeah... Being a person's really tough. Not everybody's going to like you, no matter how hard you try... but there will be people who do. And those people matter. That's sort of how I feel. I like you, and a lot of other people do too.

[ do not ask for citation, this is optimism and rose colored glasses speaking ]

[specialdog]

[ Citation needed.

... Oh well. ]

But how do you deal with it? With the people who don't like you? Or don't understand you, or won't help you...?

[ Because that's the thing--Akane never learned to deal with it. She just ran away. ]